Second Chances

Week 1 with the new/old job and I can officially say that I definitely made the 2nd best decision I've made all year by going back to Horizon. BUT the very best decision I made of 2009 had to be (and I'm sure you're just bursting with anticipation).. giving Craig another chance. No one was more scared/nervous/apprehensive about that decision than I was because let's face it.. after you've tried having a relationship 2, 3, 4 times - it gets more disheartening with each attempt. After a significant break and some serious convincing for months, I finally gave in and gave him another shot. And I can honestly say that he's been the absolute best friend that I've had in a long time. Of course, there's my "bestie" Brookes, who is my best friend from childhood & she always will be that - they're not even in the same category actually. But Craig is the guy that I can count on anytime, any day. No matter where he is, who he's with.. he's always looking out for me, trying to find ways to fix whatever problem I'm having, or just trying to make me smile after a really long day. He was probably the world's best boyfriend when he saw how unhappy I was everyday after my previous job, and he finally just told me to quit and that he'd help me whatever way he had to, but to leave behind the place that was making me so unhappy. That's a good man. Of course, I didn't just drop the job like I wanted to because I'm not going to put him in that position to support me like that and I have responsibilities to take care of (aka bills). But just knowing that I could do that, and he'd still love me just the same, and was actually encouraging me to do so just to improve MY quality of life.. that was the day that I realized how lucky I was. And I still am. :)

Anyway, the job. Still going off on tangents, in case you're keeping tabs since my first blog entry. So back to the REAL subject: my new/old job - I freaking love it. I love the environment that I walk into every morning, I love what I do, and I love that it loves me back. It's so nice leaving work and feeling good about it, rather than running for the exit at 5pm everyday, hating that I'm thinking that I'm already 1 minute closer to when I have to be back in that place. Granted, I've barely got my feet wet (for the second time) where I am now, and I have some challenges ahead, but I'm actually excited about it. Weird! It's hard to believe that I held on for so long at my old job, hating it, thinking I couldn't be doing better somewhere else. Huge misconception and I'm so glad I took the leap back to Horizon. I'm sure I'll still have some days where it's hectic and crazy, and things go wrong.. but that's okay when you're happy doing what you do, and happy working for good people. Because everyday isn't going to be perfect, but in the right circumstances, it sure can come close.

And now I can attest that in both instances of careers and (.. dare I say it..) love, it can always be worse. But things can change if you really want them to - you just have to take some initiative. And people can change as well, but they have to want to. When someone makes changes to their life even though they've been told they just need to give up and that it won't help their chances, that means something. Don't hesitate to give people a second chance... it may change your life. Sometimes, you just need to go against all logic and let it.