Thursday, January 20, 2011

Mild Panic Attack

Surprise, surprise… I'm updating my blog as Craig is out of town for work.  But.. he is currently on a plane, on his way back to RDU… so yay. :)

Anyway, as I was creating a spreadsheet tonight and going over everything that's been booked, and still needs to be booked, as well as expenses… I get a phone call from one of my bridesmaids, Lindsey.  I had just received a text from Craig about 30 minutes before that saying they were shutting the door in Cincinnati, and about to take off.  So when Lindsey called, he was well on his way home and should land at RDU in about another hour.  She and I were talking about some of the vendors that she used for her wedding in September when my phone beeps… it's a call from Craig.  My heart skips a beat and I immediately begin to panic, thinking "He's flying.. and he's calling me.  WHY IS HE FLYING & CALLING ME?!  Oh my gosh, oh my gosh.."  Clearly, my mind automatically switched to thinking it was going to be a scene out of one of the 9/11 movies and he's making the dreaded phone call.  Morbid, right!?  Ugh, I hate that my mind automatically goes there.

So I switched over in a hurry and frantically wait to hear what's coming.  I can barely hear him, which really didn't make things better.  I finally hear him say "Hey, we're delayed in Cincinnati so I just wanted to let you know."  Thank God.  So I tell him what my brief moment of hysteria was about, we say our goodbyes, and I click back over to Lindsey.  I'll also add that I clicked over to her to find that she obviously didn't miss me at all because she was still talking.  Ha!  Love her. :)


To sum up - luckily there was no crisis, I haven't made any progress on any more vendors, and my spreadsheet is basically as I found it… empty.  But - at least I still have a fiance!!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Unconsciously Competent

So… I'm in a wedding planning frenzy right now, and let's face it - I love it (I've only been thinking about this day for the last 26 years).  I've finally asked all of my bridesmaids if they'll be in our wedding, so I can now get started with planning their things (yay!).  Luckily, they all said they'd love to be in it… for some reason, I was worried they'd say no!  I mean, you have to wonder if people really want to be in weddings and you can't just assume… I know I've loved being in the weddings that I have, but not everyone necessarily feels the same way you do about weddings.  Anyway - I now get to proceed with playing dress up with them, so I'm happy. :)

In other news, we've decided on an October wedding and everything is pretty much set with the date and venue, so that is a HUGE relief!  Since we decided on the date this weekend, Craig's wheels started to turn a little bit… like with ideas and stuff.  We were riding in the car after we had agreed on the date and venue and let me just fill you in on a little snippet of the conversation that went terribly wrong:

Craig:  So the wedding is in October…
H:  Uh, yeah.
Craig:  Well Halloween is in October.
H:  G'job.    *this is dripping with sarcasm in case you didn't catch it*
Craig:  I know what we can do!  Let's have a Halloween themed wedding!  Everyone can dress up and..
H:  Just stop.  No.
Craig:  But it would be fun with the cos…
H:  ……….. You're serious……… And you're now off the wedding committee.

Don't get me wrong… I will still ask him what he thinks about different decisions, but any answer he gives me will automatically trigger the memory of his plan of a halloween costume party as we exchange wedding vows.  Unless everyone came to the wedding dressed as Disney princes and princesses… well even then… all I can do is shake my head.

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